Alone vs. lonely

Wait, before I write more....
Is, by any chance, the comments function on my blog not user friendly?
Apparently several of you are just reading and sneaking out :-) How will I ever know if my blog did any good to you?!

So carrying on...
a) Saturday noon, bored at home. I realise there is a huge multiplex behind my house. So I drive by, and since din't have anyone for company I go and watch 'Superman Returns', all by myself. Anyway, you watch a movie yourself through your own eyes don't you?

b) Sunday late evening, have not gone out all day and pretty much been ornamental on the couch. I get a wild thought to find out what are the beaches within 15miles of my house. I find this 'free-parking' beach in Milford. Tried calling Xiaoru (colleague), she wasn't home. Rajat would anyway be in NYK busy showing his wife around. So, I take my car, take the map and head to the beach. It was enchanting, it was peaceful. Just sat there on the sand looking at water, far till my eyes could gaze. It was almost like my whole life came up in front of me.
Conversation with Bhumika a couple of hours ago had, probably, been the catalyst.
I liked the trip.

So what's that strange about it, for people to say 'man! alone? you are something'? I think I'm comfortable with myself, with being myself. (Hmmmm yeh alag baat hai ki thoda sa 'bahut ho gaya' feeling aa raha hai)
I think many people fear being alone because it's actually the fear of feeling lonely. Heck, i've been lonely from years now without fearing it...even when I was not alone. (Bangalore-hyderabad-gurgaon-USA-BLR-USA)
I had chosen it.....'I' had chosen it.
I think it's now .........finally ..........getting to me.
Time to (waving fingers in the air) 'settle down'.......
signing off
Madhu