meethe bol bole bole payaliyaa...
boleree....bole payaliya..
chun chanan bole jhanak jhan bole
meethe bol bole ...bole payaaliiiyaaa~~
Too long since I sang on a blog :) bhupinder's voice dancing in my ears as I write
pag pag naache re, ghungharu kii daasii
ik pag raadhaa jaisii, ik pag miiraa jaisii
saanvare kii bolii bole
paayaliyaa bole
miithe bol bole ......
Time for some serious singing to be pursued..
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Sunday, September 24, 2006
amrutavanthe.....
Date: 21 Sep 06
Time: 90 mins before my flight to Bangalore from NYK
With nothing much to do but wait, here I am transported back in my thoughts to 1996.....
What an awesome time it was - the first experiences of COLLEGE. For me college was independence, it was break time from aggressive competitive studies, it was time to explore music,acting and such...
if only..........
sigh, if only it had also been a time to be more creative in making new friends. (not just with girls ;) but generally speaking)
When I look back I wonder many a times why I was such an introvert. When it comes to talking to girls, (without having a paralysis-by-analysis but nevertheless trying to scratch the surface of the problem) was it fear? was it dis-interest? or was it the formality to wait until there was an actual reason to initiate a coversation? whatever it was ...
and then it happened..
My first crush
She was in the same batch as me in the chemistry lab...used to fiddle around with the pippettes and burettes at an adjacent table to me.
(Pretty sad that I dint realise that for any chemistry to happen I had to first talk to her!)
Soon I find out she stays near my house...
(Seems stupid now but it sometimes feels good to realise how I 'chup chup ke' used to maro-chakkar near her house while coming back from college lol..atleast that way ive participated in society's rituals)
Still my stance was that there is no opportunity to talk to the girl...so why would I do that!!?? (*heaves out a biiiig sigh*)
Remember that day in class? Free time...I and Karthik are chatting with Deepti, my group song buddy ...and behind her is the girl gang generally chatting away. Deepti wants me to come and sing something to the group. Which guy wudnt jump?...but not I. I was this lump of nervousness..(bcoz she was in the group, is that why? i dont know) so finally I didn't, after a lot of ridiculing by Deepti ('enaag hogatte!? come on sing man') Karthik, for the love of god, couldn't believe it (neither can I now)
So much so, that she used to hang out frequently with a girl I knew from primary school, and with whom I always used to compete for the first rank (I know - GROAN!) I hardly talked to my primary school friend during national college!!!!
*scowls and lets out a grunt that sounds like aaarrrghh*
anyway no use thinking 'jaane kyooooo...jaane kyo'
amrutavanthe...premada gaana
swargavidante...premada dhyana
That was the time when this song had released ...and it kind of made sure I felt good about being in the 'dhyana' :) heh....
Naah....the more I think of it now, the more I realise it was only a crush, (and nothing else) the experience of which was heightened by the mystery element, because forget knowing her, I had not even talked to her :-)
Feb 14. Valentine's day/Rose day. Co-incidentally, last academic day of the college. 'Till date you haven't talked to her. Come on, now will you listen to some immature friend of yours and go and present her a ROSE!!?? HAR HAR'....All my attempts to argue with my mind failed.
It felt though, that she was by now somehow aware that I have something on my mind (or maybe wishful thinking). I think that last moment of the evening will stay with me for a long time..We both came to the fountain of roses, leading to the College exit. I don't know why SHE was looking at me, but I was definitely looking at her thinking 'do i talk to her?'
Did not..
I forgot her, forgot I had a crush or whatever (quite easily so by the way!)
Cut to now - (figured too much written) 4-5 days back I'm just looking around in a 'networking'/timepass portal where you find your school/college mates etc and guess who I find....
She is in the US somewhere..
I wrote to her...got her number after introducing myself (she said she 'remembered' me) I told her I'll give her a call before I leave.
I could not call her AT ALL! (coz of hectic transition items at work and last min shopping/packing)
huh....my thoughts of "how i've never heard her voice-what kind of voice would such a sweet looking girl have-i guess ill never even hear her voice" all that blah aside....I just thought OK let me establish that I've talked to her...for my own conscience...
ha ha looks like the day's kinda screwed up. First I miss my airport shuttle thanks to last min packing, then the cab I ordered last min demands an exhorbitant amount to take me...and will not accept credit card hence.....
anyway I get to the airport.....and call her.
'Please leave a message and we will get back to you'
Okay :) part of my goal achieved, I heard her voice...
alright enuf written, laptop charge is almost out and its time to board the flight.
Will not edit this, straight to the blog...like all my others :)
bye
Madhu
Time: 90 mins before my flight to Bangalore from NYK
With nothing much to do but wait, here I am transported back in my thoughts to 1996.....
What an awesome time it was - the first experiences of COLLEGE. For me college was independence, it was break time from aggressive competitive studies, it was time to explore music,acting and such...
if only..........
sigh, if only it had also been a time to be more creative in making new friends. (not just with girls ;) but generally speaking)
When I look back I wonder many a times why I was such an introvert. When it comes to talking to girls, (without having a paralysis-by-analysis but nevertheless trying to scratch the surface of the problem) was it fear? was it dis-interest? or was it the formality to wait until there was an actual reason to initiate a coversation? whatever it was ...
and then it happened..
My first crush
She was in the same batch as me in the chemistry lab...used to fiddle around with the pippettes and burettes at an adjacent table to me.
(Pretty sad that I dint realise that for any chemistry to happen I had to first talk to her!)
Soon I find out she stays near my house...
(Seems stupid now but it sometimes feels good to realise how I 'chup chup ke' used to maro-chakkar near her house while coming back from college lol..atleast that way ive participated in society's rituals)
Still my stance was that there is no opportunity to talk to the girl...so why would I do that!!?? (*heaves out a biiiig sigh*)
Remember that day in class? Free time...I and Karthik are chatting with Deepti, my group song buddy ...and behind her is the girl gang generally chatting away. Deepti wants me to come and sing something to the group. Which guy wudnt jump?...but not I. I was this lump of nervousness..(bcoz she was in the group, is that why? i dont know) so finally I didn't, after a lot of ridiculing by Deepti ('enaag hogatte!? come on sing man') Karthik, for the love of god, couldn't believe it (neither can I now)
So much so, that she used to hang out frequently with a girl I knew from primary school, and with whom I always used to compete for the first rank (I know - GROAN!) I hardly talked to my primary school friend during national college!!!!
*scowls and lets out a grunt that sounds like aaarrrghh*
anyway no use thinking 'jaane kyooooo...jaane kyo'
amrutavanthe...premada gaana
swargavidante...premada dhyana
That was the time when this song had released ...and it kind of made sure I felt good about being in the 'dhyana' :) heh....
Naah....the more I think of it now, the more I realise it was only a crush, (and nothing else) the experience of which was heightened by the mystery element, because forget knowing her, I had not even talked to her :-)
Feb 14. Valentine's day/Rose day. Co-incidentally, last academic day of the college. 'Till date you haven't talked to her. Come on, now will you listen to some immature friend of yours and go and present her a ROSE!!?? HAR HAR'....All my attempts to argue with my mind failed.
It felt though, that she was by now somehow aware that I have something on my mind (or maybe wishful thinking). I think that last moment of the evening will stay with me for a long time..We both came to the fountain of roses, leading to the College exit. I don't know why SHE was looking at me, but I was definitely looking at her thinking 'do i talk to her?'
Did not..
I forgot her, forgot I had a crush or whatever (quite easily so by the way!)
Cut to now - (figured too much written) 4-5 days back I'm just looking around in a 'networking'/timepass portal where you find your school/college mates etc and guess who I find....
She is in the US somewhere..
I wrote to her...got her number after introducing myself (she said she 'remembered' me) I told her I'll give her a call before I leave.
I could not call her AT ALL! (coz of hectic transition items at work and last min shopping/packing)
huh....my thoughts of "how i've never heard her voice-what kind of voice would such a sweet looking girl have-i guess ill never even hear her voice" all that blah aside....I just thought OK let me establish that I've talked to her...for my own conscience...
ha ha looks like the day's kinda screwed up. First I miss my airport shuttle thanks to last min packing, then the cab I ordered last min demands an exhorbitant amount to take me...and will not accept credit card hence.....
anyway I get to the airport.....and call her.
'Please leave a message and we will get back to you'
Okay :) part of my goal achieved, I heard her voice...
alright enuf written, laptop charge is almost out and its time to board the flight.
Will not edit this, straight to the blog...like all my others :)
bye
Madhu
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